- I am grateful for the New Year's Eve Full Moon...and all the ways the Moon continues to teach me about mirrors...to see everything as able to reflect where I am at within myself.
- I am grateful for the positive flow of energy that moves through creative expression...it's one of the best uses for the immense energy that gathers and collects, putting it to good use. When I do not, I draw in situations that are not fun to engage with, tipped off by anger, fear, or sadness. All energies worked with consciously can be fuel for creation.
- I am grateful for all the people in my world mirroring infinite varieties of my own expressions.
- I am grateful for all those who have come before me, lighting the way.
- I am grateful for all those who have come before me and have felt stuck. You are palpably cheerleading my walk. I feel you. I am grateful for the support.
- I am grateful for the energy of Fire. You are one of my closest teachers. You continue to show me how to work with You in creative ways for expansion and upliftment. You teach me about the power of respect and consciously approaching in humility.
- I am grateful for the energy of Water. You teach me how to be fluid, flexible, and trusting conduit. You show me the strength in softness.
- I am grateful for the energy of Air. You teach me about clarity, effective movement, and release. You show me ways of communicating that are full of power and free of aggression.
- I am grateful for the energy of Earth. You teach me about rooting deeply to expand into greater freedom. You hold all of the elements in your balancing womb. When I approach you with love in my heart, you show me that I can garden any seeds into bountiful harvest.
- I am grateful to the muscles and connective tissues of my body. You continue to grow and adapt to the needs of my spirit, and have put up gracefully with the demands of my ego. I will nourish you more in the coming minutes, hours, days, months, and years ahead.
How Can I Ever....
How can I ever look
You in the eyes
Again?
How can I ever eat
Your bread
and drink Your wine again?
I will fight
I will strive
I will struggle
I will prove
I will know
I will do it
On.......my...... own.
All
Alone.
Aeons rolled by
over pot-holed
and sketchy roads
trafficked by
all the hungry ghosts.
I met them one-by-one
and all by name.
All with a look of disdain.
Until
Just one breath
Just One breath
and an ever-so-slight
but just enough
clearing in the fog
and I could see your face again.
Your face straining against
those enormous
nearly petrified
pieces of wood
so neatly fitted
together
pressing in against
your beautiful face
your beautiful unwavering
face.
So close I could smell the
salt pouring from your
veins, putting one foot in front of the other
as you always did;
no difference between pulling
the weeds in the garden of my mind
and dragging
dragging
dragging
this weight,
this weight I still stagger with
up the hill to Golgotha.
Quadriceps quivering
at the vision
of Your focus and
Vision;
Seeing Him everywhere
While the body
Rides the edge of breaking
Under the weight of
My illusions.
Oh yes ~
I had to believe
to prop up the belief that
it were all about
me.
How else could I
turn away from You?
Impugnation Agnitae Veritatis
Turning
Turning
Churning
Clenching
Armoring
until the Heart
cannot be felt
let alone
Seen.
Until that
breath....
Haaahhhhhhhh....
InSpirito Sancto
How many forms
of deliverance have
I turned away from?
How many lives
burned through
like forgotten
forests
men must raze
for cattle
to starve and
wander across?
How many faces have
smiled upon me with
Your Grace?
Haaaaahhhhhhhh......
I am ready
To TRUST.
One Reality
One Face
One Heart
One Purpose
Serve ~ Love
Nothing has been lost
but the eyes that
only saw
fog.
Nothing has been found but
That which has been here
All along.
You are the
Life
Light
Truth.
Aham Brahmasmi
I Am That.
Turning ever towards,
I am Yours.
Scott Patrick Schwenk 4/29/09
