Tuesday, July 28, 2009

BreathWorks in NYC this Week!


On Saturday, August 1st from 1pm (sharp)-4pm, I’m excited to offer the first NYC ALCHEMY OF TRANSFORMATION: A Breathwork Immersion at Virayoga in Soho. $75 pre-registered (by July 31) $100 at the door.

The Alchemy of Transformation is a 3-hour workshop whose main aim is to use the power of Awareness and Breath to fire up the crucible for lasting transformation. There will be 4 rounds of an ancient rhythmic breathing meditation increasing in length through each round. Prior to each round we'll work with potent questions whose aim is to invite Awareness to reveal itSelf more clearly within. You will leave this workshop with concrete living practices for transformation, and have taken a profound leap in your ability to be your own best healer, teacher, guru, and guide through any circumstance in which you find yourself.

580 Broadway, Suite 205
(btw Prince and Houston)
NY, NY 10012

Pre-register by emailing staff@virayoga.com

Private Sessions in NYC:
Friday 7/31 and Monday 8/3 by appointment at my office at 26th and Broadway. Call (310) 922-4890 to schedule your ses

And there will be a special Full-Moon/Eclipse breathing/healing workshop on Wednesday, Aug 5th in the East Village:

Using the LIGHT to Navigate the Shadow

In this special BreathWorks collaboration with Didge Project (AJ Block and Tyler Sussman), we'll be working with the Full Moon and Lunar Eclipse which will both be reaching their peak at 8:55pm this night, and an ancient rhythmic breathing meditation to magnify your Awareness, and expand your capacity to reveal and release any illusions you may still be carrying around LOVE. AJ and Tyler will be playing Didgeridoos during the breathwork. The Didge is said to be the very first instrument, after the human voice, and carries powerful vibrations to heal, reveal, release, and Awaken. Come join us!

When: Wednesday, August 5th, 2009
Time: 8:00pm (sharp) - 9:30pm
Where: Gallery 151, 350 Bowery (between E. 3rd St. and E. 4th St.)
Exchange: $40
Bring: Something to sit on and lay on for the breathwork (ie; yoga mat or folded blanket) and a small bottle of water.

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

I caught a poem
by the tail the other day
embedded in the sand
next to a nearly dissolved
under an old dented can of
Pabst Blue Ribbon.

You just never know
where these things'll
pop up next.

The sea just laughed
and carried on.

Scott Patrick Schwenk 7/21/09

Sunday, July 19, 2009

Staying On Purpose

I am
what I am.
I will never be
or less
than what I really
and already am.

Dreams, thoughts, wishes
all congeal, reveal, gather energy...
the ferris wheel of of the marketplace
turning, glittering, enticing...
so convincing that there
could be,
no must be
something MORE!

"Come to me," it offers,
"I'll give you everything you
never got...just pay me the
price of admission."

What price,
you ask?
For making a contract
that offers everything?

Only your life,
one drop at a
time...so slowly
you may not even notice.
Until the flimsy threads
holding it all
start to fray
splinter and
lay you open
like a sprawling
Las Vegas buffet...
No boundaries,
No limits
On who or what
can feed
and for how long
on your life-force.

"But, I'm confused," you say,
"About the price."

"Ah, good!" the ferris wheel says
through the charming old twinkling lights,
"Then you've already started to pay."

Scott Patrick Schwenk 7/19/09

Friday, July 10, 2009

How To Do The Breathwork

  1. Commit to yourself to do at least 10 minutes of the following 3-part breath
  2. Set an intention for yourself (ie; recharging your batteries, having an insight about something you're working with, moving stuck energy, releasing pain, connecting with your purpose, deepening your connection with unlimited creative energy)
  3. Put on some music (suggestions - Peter Gabriel's PASSION, anything by Coyote Oldman, anything by Lisa Gerard)...or download this CD with my mentor in this work, David Elliott, guiding you through the process. Try both!
  4. Turn off and/or minimize anything that could distract you
  5. Lay down in a comfortable place, and have a blanket near you if you might get chilly in the middle of the breathwork. Ideally don't have anything under your head. We want your throat open so that energy can easily move through there.
  6. Start the breathwork -- This breath is ALL THROUGH THE MOUTH. It's 2 breaths in, and 1 breath out. As you're breathing in, you'll take the first half of your breath into your low belly, and the second half into your upper chest, then exhale and repeat.
  7. Continue breathing for at least 10 minutes...you'll need this amount of time with the breath to help you get out of the atmosphere of the thinking mind. It's okay if you get light-headed in the beginning. That will pass as you let go of control in the mind.
  8. After 10 minutes of breathing in this way, you can return to a normal way of breathing...and let your body relax deeply into wherever your laying down. This is when you can get a profound recharge of your energy---the more you let go and relax, the deeper the recharge.
  9. Congratulate yourself at the end for making time for YOU in a very powerful way.
  10. Try doing this for 30 days straight and see what happens! I guarantee amazing results across your entire experience of yourself if you stick with all 30 days.

Thursday, July 9, 2009

Causeless Happiness this Sat 1-3pm in LA

Love's Expression Unfolding through YOU:

While I was living in the Siddha Yoga Meditation Ashram, having my life and my molecules completely reorganized by Love's relentless waves, I had the thought that one day I'd probably go back out into the world and work again (though when I joined the staff, I intended on staying forever...). I knew that whatever I did in the world needed to impact the most people possible in a positive way, so I asked myself what lines of work and industries had the furthest reach on the planet. And after a lot of inquiry and interviewing people, I settled on the entertainment industry.

Though I left behind formal employment in entertainment when I left CAA over 7 years ago, I never left that commitment behind - to be a conduit for affecting the most number of people on the planet in a positive way.

Just now while lying on my massage table doing the breathwork I usually guide others through, some dots connected up, in the way they seem to when I get out of my intellect and into a place open-hearted expansion and surrender. In that place, social media, Twitter to be exact, rose up in my awareness.

I've had a number of conversations lately with people who've somewhat defined themselves by being non-Twitter users, stating their lack of interest in following peoples latest meals, bowel movements, and latest finds at the flea market. All that is just one layer of social media...and we're in the midst of a Expression Movement; a defining era that is opening up wide expression capacities for EVERYONE. Just like the town you live in, there are people at every level of consciousness, and as social media networks continue to expand, we'll see all those layers expressed in status updates and tweets.

HOWEVER, that doesn't yet touch what's possible with these networks. Now more than ever, we have a chance to not only "Be the Change", but have it impact wide circles of people, people we may never even meet by putting our expression out there...writing and posting the things you'd want to be lifted up by, the articles, quotes, and sites that expand your point of view, your capacity to hold lots of points of view without having to make any one of them the only or the right point of view.

There's no end to how powerful these networks are and will become. Feel like you can't come up with something "worth" posting? That's just insecurity trying to shut down your voice.....just old bullshit coming to the surface to be released as the illusion it is. Still unclear about insecurity? Read my earlier blogs about my own dance with that part of the shadow.

Bypass judgment, and jump in! You have Awesome and Amazing things to share. You have a gorgeous Heart and can be as much of a conduit of Spirit and Love and Awakening as anyone...or good tips about how to keep rats out of a roof garden (wish one of you in my network had been tweeting about that a few weeks ago!).

Drop the fear, and write! Share it! Trust more :)


Tuesday, July 7, 2009

In Security...Part III

One day, I was out walking with my mentor David Elliott and a few others on a break from the book tour for THE RELUCTANT HEALER in Eugene, Oregon, when David pointed up to a tree with a large green ball of something growing in it's branches. "Mistletoe," he said.

Mistletoe is a parasite that will move into a plant and mimic the leaves and branches of that plant and grow with the plant. The plant will not know that it is there. The mistletoe will keep feeding off of the plant's lifeforce (letting the plant do all of the work to gather more lifeforce) until it takes over the entire tree or plant and kills it.

Recognition, Money, and Belonging all promised to make me feel better about myself. Yet none of these really makes a difference as long as the mistletoe of insecurity is still growing in the tree of the human beingness. No amount of success, recognition, or appreciation is ever enough as long as this parasite is feeding. Any feelings of expansion, elevation, and love, are usually short-lived...that is until we start to deal with insecurity, and move into Security.

Writing that last blog entry on insecurity and making it public took more courage than I expected. My mind kept trying to present scenarios where sharing the information caused people to turn away. Working with the tools I've shared with my clients, and primarily the breathwork, has been what continues to carry me through this process.

When I was much younger and just getting started on my spritual path, I was thouroughly convinced that my job was to find the most enlightened saint on the Earth, get him or her to bop me on the head and I would be fully enlightened too, going along my merry way with no more cares or worries ever again. I've met a number of people many would and in some cases do, consider saints...and while there has been some head bopping here and there, none of the blows to the head seemed to shortcut the need to do the work of cleaning my own house.

I believe that insecurity is one of the ways that the ego or shadow would have you and I to not give our gifts in the world, to not allow God's Love, Spirit's Empowerment, Nature's Unstoppable Flow of Grace....from moving through you and I as conduits.

Yesterday, driving back from teaching at We Care Spa in Desert Hot Springs, as I do most Mondays for the last 2+ years, I was filled with commitment...commitment to root out insecurity completely...starting with the place it lives most obviously to me....in my financial debt.

And in making this commitment, a big idea came through my intution to support this commitment. The more quickly the debt is paid off, the more quickly I will clear a lot of the old energies holding the insecurity in place, and the more room there will be for the Power of the Work to come through my life and offerings. AND, whatever I do around this has to benefit more people than just me.

In line with this commitment, I intend that all my financial debt be completely paid-in-full by December 31st, 2009, and that it be done through inspiring Security, Trust, and Faith in all who cross my path, while deepening my own.


Sunday, July 5, 2009

The Homeopathy of Watermelons

How is it
My Dear One,
That I continue to forget
This feeling
This feeling of
Your Heart
In Mine,
Your Breath
Gliding through my spine,
A xylophone of sound
and vibration.

This anesthesia
has got to wear off sometime,
and sometime soon.

Life is bursting with
the juice of a ripe red cool watermelon
running down my chin
without the forgetfulness
coursing through my mind...
It's a breeze carrying the nectar of
Your scent from every direction,
A belly full of fresh-baked
Apple Pie goodness from
The many orchards of Your Smiles.

Please let me never forget

Scott Patrick Schwenk 7/5/09

Friday, July 3, 2009

Boundaries and Insecurity Part 2

Now I'm going to move into the more personal as a way of sharing what I'm learning about these powerful areas, navigating the way to abiding love.

In the last couple of weeks, the clarity has been getting much sharper around my own relationship to insecurity in my lifetime, and perhaps many lifetimes. I don't mean to sound arrogant here, but I know that the work that has come through me is powerful and has helped many people to discover more about themselves, what they seek, and move towards awakening to their potential. This awareness has been with me since I was a child, though back then it would get me into a lot of trouble. I had no idea that I was working with fire, and that fire needs a strong container and a lot of respect in order not to burn me, the surroundings, or other people along the way.

Let me clarify -- it wasn't and isn't the power of intuition or Spirit or Healing that got or gets me into stuck places...it's nearly always some form of insecurity. And the further I walk the trail of healing and teaching, the more Awareness is cultivated, the stronger the force that hits against any illusions I'm still carrying, no matter the size.

Insecurity is one of the biggest illusions of all. It, at one time or another had me convinced I was unattractive, insignificant, not good enough, not strong enough, and just not lovable by anyone from whom I was wanting love and not seeming to get it.

Have you ever been out and about and noticed someone you found really really attractive, smiled in his or her direction, and got nothing in return? How'd that make you feel? Did you spend the rest of your time at that gym, restaurant, store, bar, club, or wherever working to make yourself appear more attractive to get the recognition you were craving. I have done that. And in recent times, have caught that reflex in-action. I have been working to connect the dots and notice how my insecurity can be triggered by outside events, and what choices I have made when I'm under its influence. Kind of like D.U.I, but more like L.U.I.I. (Living Under the Influence of Insecurity). Maybe we'll have programs around that one day! Maybe even "traffic tickets" for operating under the influence of insecurity! I'm being a bit funny here (even if only to myself), but maybe that kind of reinforcement would help us all wake up more quickly to how we live, think, and feel...and to begin to make new choices to see, hear, and feel the Truth, rather than what the voice or feeling of insecurity is trying to convince you and I.

In my adult life, one of the areas I've been most influenced by insecurity has been through the way my ego percieves my value. It has gotten this through how much money is in my bank account, what kind of people have been interested in me (or not) romantically, and what people say, think, and feel about me as a person. I'm sure I'm the only one here, right? Ha ha!

In the last couple of weeks, this study of mine has honed in on the area of my work as a healer and teacher. While I was up in San Francisco recently with the healing work, I was scheduled to teach my mentor David Elliott's Level 1 Healer Training Class. The registration for the class stayed steady at 3 participants, no matter what (the first and second classes had over 30 participants). I knew I couldn't afford to spiral into any ideas about there being something wrong, as that might close down the energy of the work entirely. I'd come too far to walk back down that old road. Though I did glance at it a few times! I decided to look at this particular class as holding some powerful teachings for me, and stayed engaged in asking what those teachings might be. And while trying to remain open, without preconceived notions.

I wanted to fill the class, and was reaching inside myself for the familiar energy I would use to do that...a combination of passion, enthusiasm, and something else. Well, the passion was there. The enthusiasm was there. But something was missing. What was it? And as I tried to reach for this "mystery substance", I felt my body contract, my throat close, and a very uncomfortable feeling move through my nervous system.

A wake up call.

What was this? What was going on? And if I couldn't use whatever it was, how would I fill the class?

What revealed and continues to reveal around this is extremely potent for me in my development as a healer, a teacher, and as a human man with a heart. What I've been seeing is that throughout my life, I've had a knack for motivating people and getting them to do or try things I believe in. What I hadn't seen was that there has been a strand of energy in the midst of my best intentions that would color people's experience of me and what could be delivered through the Work. And if you've ever cooked with the spice Saffron, you know that one tiny strand of it can color and flavor a huge stockpot of soup.

In my motivation of people to take a certain class, whether with me or someone else, there have been many times when this "strand" was present. This strand has a very masculine and somewhat forceful energy to it. So even when my heart has been wide open and energy flowing, when this strand was present, it would color the experience, and leave me wondering why this person or that person stopped showing up, or disappeared on the heals of having what they described as a profound, life-altering opening.

And there's plenty of training and development for this "strand" out in the world. Whole bodies of courses and coaching programs that have this feeling running silently in the background.

Let me back-track a bit. I have carried financial debt since I entered college and took on student loans. Several of the loans were absolutely necessary to get me through school. The later student loans were so I could have a nicer lifestyle while doing it. This is where the insecurity comes in. You see, growing up, I didn't really fit in. Though I didn't realize that it was my insecurity that was keeping me from fitting in. Not my looks, not my clothes, not where I lived, insecurity. This insecurity would drive me to say and do things that had an abrassive edge to them, and the abrassive edge would push people away.

However, I couldn't see it. The ads I saw growing up told me that if I wore different clothes, owned cooler music, went to the right restaurants, that I would be seen as good enough, and wanted. It was all "outside" of me. That's the illusion that kept me on the hamster wheel all these years.

The insecurity pushed me to do all sorts of things in the name of self-improvement, and most of it on credit! Now, I'm not saying that credit is bad. Just like that old saying about guns. Guns don't kill people, people kill people. Credit isn't bad, I just don't think most of us were educated about what it is, how it really works, and in cultivating awareness around how and when to use it (rather than being used by our own insecurity through credit). It's interesting to me that credit cards are considered "non-secure credit".

What I felt when using the credit was stored or suppressed for later. Well, later is now. And I am here now to connect the dots, rectify the past, and share what I'm learning along the way so we can all move beyond insecurity to what we're really here for and THRIVE.

So coming back to that "strand" in the midst of my efforts. That debt that I carry was loaded with all the insecurity I felt throughout my life around my worth and my value as a man and as person. So if that strand was activated in my experience when I was encouraging someone around doing the work, because it was woven with insecurity, it would look for and connect with any insecurity in you and unbeknownst to me at the time,it would have some leverage to get someone to take action. Amidst the best conscious intentions for the highest good, was the subtle energy of manipulation trying to pull at the good that was trying to be created and elevated through the work.

This has not been an easy thing to see and digest. I have to walk very consciously and tenderly through this territory, cultivating even deeper self-love and neutrality. I have to notice how insecurity would rather that I not share and expose this side of my humanity, that it would rather encourage me to sink in silence.

I've gone too far down the road to be interested in either sinking or silence. And the more I step into the work, the clearer it becomes that it's much bigger than me.

It has been my practice to send out emails and make followup calls to people on my lists that I have worked with around the country before heading out to their city with the Work. Some appreciate the calls as they get innundated with emails and wouldn't otherwise know I was coming. Others were able to feel this strand in the background, and probably some didn't even know what they were feeling...just felt something uncomfortable....something they couldn't quite name, that didn't match up to their great experiences around the work, but which felt nonetheless.....off.

What I have learned in relationship to David Elliott and this work is that my job around my humanity and seeing through my shadow is to know in my heart, deeply, that I am 100% good and loving...to keep putting attention on this knowing and let it melt away the vestiges of the illusion of insecurity.

A few weeks ago 40 of us gathered with David in the high desert of Joshua Tree deep into Joshua Tree State Park for a simple and powerful ceremony around a fire. Prior to the ceremony, he sat in the early morning hours and opened his intuition through hearing, and was given statements for each of us to make and have witnessed by the elements, the group, the desert, Spirit, Reality....here is the one I was given:

"Do you know how much I care about you, and you, and you -- and this work. I am beginning to figure out how little this experience is about my ego, my needs, how smart I appear, how many answers I have, how enlightened I am. I'm a seed, I'm germinating, sprouting, and growing now. I am beautiful!"

For any of you over the years and lifetimes who have ever in any way felt manipulated, cajoled, pushed out of my insecurity through any insecurity you may carry, I deeply, humbly offer you my apologies. I have only ever had the best intentions in my heart. I call that energy back to me, and to the light of Truth for it to be fully healed. My conscious intentions were only ever for your highest good. Now that these unconscious intentions are being seen, I take responsibility for them as well.

May you be completely free from any and all forms of suffering and the causes of suffering. May you have happiness and the causes of happiness. May you know you are 100% good, 100% loveable, 100% LOVE!

Thank you Spirit, thank you David, thank you Mom and Dad, thank you to all my friends past and present, thank you to all of my clients who continue to be teachers to me, bringing in areas that I get to work with more deeply in myself...and I thank myself, for not giving up, for reaching through the pain and illusions of the past to Trust and Faith and Love.

The journey continues...I'll share more as it unfolds...


Wednesday, July 1, 2009

Alchemy in NYC at Virayoga, Sat Aug 1st

Approaching The Meal

Definitely hungry
and willing to be more patient
as everything really worth realizing
is already here
the more i relax
the more i smile and
let go
while remaining attentive to exchange
the easier its getting to see the Truth
right under my nose.
You are the storyteller now
each word
a note
passing through the
flute of the spine
the holes
breath awakening the
senses to recognize and allow
His/Her Light
to permeate and

Scott Patrick Schwenk June 19, 2009